Timotheose - A son in the Faith

Well, Conan had a very different answer to this question and he can, unfortunately not offer me the type of guidance that he did when I was younger. I have a new Master now and His Spirit is leading me in VERY different directions than the giant Cimmerian of Hyborea.

I am, it seems being molded and worked, prodded and pulled into a new way of life and a new perspective on my life and it is quite uncomfortable, painful even. God seems to be opening my eyes so that I can see how shallow and meaningless some of my pursuits have become over the last year. I have begun to 'love' the world and its trappings, its definitions of success and happiness and I despise myself for it.

My calling is to follow Jesus into the wilderness, not into the slothful consumerism and slavery of our western decadent culture. I choose to follow him and thus have no place to rest my head and I wish to recommit to that response to his request of 'follow me'.

Here is a list some of the lies that I have believed ...

- buying and purchasing can make you happy
- physical health is as important as spiritual health
- security is mine to create
- my needs are more important than my fellow human beings needs
- my time is my own
- I will always have more time


The truth is, love is everything. Love of my fellow 'image-bearers', no matter what faith, background, ethnicity, gender, social status is all. I want to live a life of love like that. I want to follow my Lord and Savior into the type of life that he lived. "No greater love does one man have for another than he should lay his life down for his brother" he taught. I pray for that, I long for that and I know I am so woefully inadequate for that kind of love and I thank God that he has given me His Spirit so that I can be lifted into that type of love in time.

Today I hurt and I mourn for the lack of it.