Timotheose - A son in the Faith

Over the last couple of days the Lord has been teaching me a few things about my life, my ways and my heart. Some of it is good, some is hard to hear.

This morning's devotion got me thinking a lot about Family. I am re-connecting with some of my family having not maintained contact as well as I believe God would from me. In the Proverb it says that a 'brother' is born for adversity, and I ask myself who are my brothers?

I have always had a tough time staying 'connected' with my friends and/or family. This has been at least partially due to having an unhealthy amount of pride and shame, which, when I screwed up or made mistakes conspired to keep me from facing them again.

I am happy to say that today, due to my Rebirth as a Child of the Most High this aspect of 'the old man' are dieing, and yet there has been much harm done as a result of these sins and much work needs to be done to amend the past.

I am also forced to realize that today my family is primarily my Christian community. My brothers are those that I have come to know and love by the Spirit and in the Spirit like Caley S., Richard H., Dave M., Robert S., and so many others.

This reminds me of the Lord's insistence on pre-eminence in the lives of his disciples. HE must come first in all of my loyalties and affections. I would gladly follow till the end and yet I know how desperately I need His grace and power to do so.

I pray often that I never forget that the Lord does not "delight in sacrifice" or "take pleasure in burnt offerings" alone but that "the sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart" as David so wisely states in the 50th Psalm.

Thank you Father for your never-ending mercy and goodness to us all.

In Christ,
Tim

Just hittin the road at 6:40am after a nice sleep at my bro's place. We had a pretty good visit together and tentatively made plans to hang out again soon.

My parents are not gettin' any younger and part of my trip is to try and convince 'the boys' that we should try and get together more often, even if it would only please my parents.

It was kinda weird being with Mitch, there was a definate distance there that I had not anticipated. We have seen so little of one another that it is probably fitting, but a little weird. Mitch left when he was 16 so he has been on his own for quite some time and has, like me had to re-create a 'family'. His just happened to be filled with bikers and criminals while mine is filled with amazing Saints like 'The Crew", my Pastor's, and my other Christian friends.

Thank you Lord for all you have done for me. I am truly blessed.

Well, I have just enjoyed an awesome meal in Hope at a little restauraunt called Rolly's. I am taking a bit of time out to do my morning devotions and to start this little diary/blog.

My trip began at 4:00am when I blearily rolled out of bed and drove to the Duke Point ferry terminal in time to catch the 'early bird' crossing which leaves at 5:15am. The lineup was fairly long with a lot of commercial traffic.
I spent the two hour crossing in my car working on my budget and doing what I call 'Life Leadership' which is planning and focusing my efforts on my goals and objectives.
The route I took from Tsawassan seemed a bit slow, eve though it was prettyu direct. It was okay though 'cause Charity charted my course for me and far be it for me to complain about her support. :)
It has taken me 4 hours rom the ferry to get here which is a bit troubling as I still have 3 hours to go before I get to Vernon where I am going to hook up with my brother Mitch.
I am real stoked for this trip. I have not seen my brothers in a disgustingly long time so it will be awesome to try and get back in touch with them. I must admit to a bit of trepedation as my relationship with my brothers is pretty weak and un-christlike and I don't know what type of reception I will get. It's not like I think that they would reject my attempt to get closer to them but I am still a bit freaked out.
Well I'm gonna take a bit of time to check out Hope as it is the site of the filming of that testosterone spiking movie Rambo, First Blood. Speaking of which, if you haven't seen the new Rambo, don't bother, it is IMO not worth it.